Yesterday, I wrote about second chances. While it made me reassess my decisions in life, it reminded me of a person very close to my heart. People come and go in our lives – that’s inevitable, but what matters are the moments, the tears, and laughter that were shared.
Here’s a letter I dedicate to a person who went away from my life but helped me love myself better.
Hi ex, how have you been?
I hope that you were able to find the happiness I failed to give. I hope you find the courage to try new things; to go after your dreams even without my reinforcements. I hope that amidst everything, you finally learn to how love yourself over others. Stop putting their necessities before yours. It was never selfish to prioritize yourself at times.
I am sorry. I can’t apologize enough for the wrong things I’ve done. In our years together, we both have our share of happy and sad tears. Moments that outburst with emotions too big to be contained. I guess that’s why arguments and clashes usually follow us whenever we’re together.
Even if our relationship was as extreme as Carino Brutal, we were at peace in each other’s hearts. We found happiness in each other’s craziness and lived in a world filled with outrageous moments.
Thank you for teaching me how to love, for believing in me when I was lost. Thank you for choosing me. While we both knew at that time how things will end, you still took a chance on me. And for that, I’m more than grateful.
You are the reason why I know myself better now. Back then, I would’ve lost myself and succumb to the vices, friends, who only took advantage of my fragility.
Years have passed, and I now found the confidence to say I still love you. Love that shines on a different light, A love matured enough to understand, and a love that accepts.
We were never the ones to hold back, but this time I wish for your happiness more than mine. You went away, and I found my self.